I am human

I’m walking around with these glossy eyes,”I’m just tired”I say, but you know what? It’s bullshit.yes I’m tired but it’s not all from lack of sleep.i am tired from waking up with nothing to look forward to,tired of going to bed exhausted after doing a million things I find no enjoyment in doing.im tired of feeling this void, this tired that looms over me even though my days are packed.I’m tired of the loneliness that presses down on me even though I’m surrounded by dozens of ppl. So why can’t I just say it? Humans are so afraid to look into each other eyes and say ” I am unhappy,I am broken, fragile and fallible”I’ve been conditioned to associate pain with weakness, sadness with coldness,loneliness with unworthiness,difference with disease,as if these feelings are contagious, as if ambivalence is something not to be felt but to be feared.well I say screw all that. Fuck forced smiles and polite handshakes, and” I’m fine, thank you”screw the fear of crying in a public place,screw the fake chipper voice,fuck the lies we spit out to hide our real problems.i am human.i am meant to feel everything and to feel it all openly.i am not metal, I am flesh and bone.my boiled blood forces through my cold clammy hands I am intricate and beautiful and I should never try to hide my human parts, because if I do what’s left to show?