Song attempt??

Vrs.1
I miss your voice
It use to make me tremble
And I miss the “we”
You and I used to resemble
Not even friends
So I can’t pretend
That I’m alright (cause you know I’m not alright)

Chorus
How did you move on, forget me, wipe my kiss off of your lips?
How do I get on, run off, like you didn’t even exist?
Thank you for breaking the one part I had that wasn’t wrong
Now ill just sit here writing memories like a bad song
Like we didn’t have love at all
Like we didn’t have love at all

Vrs.2
Remember when there was meaning in the word “mine”
Did you forget when it was on our side,,time
Are you surprised that I haven’t gotten on with my life
Or just wondering why your on my mind tonight
No I’m not alright.

Break
I fell into you when I was falling for the mr.wrongs
You knew me better than I knew myself all along
I guess leaving just was something that you do
It’s killing me inside because I hon-est-ly loved you

Chorus
How did you move on, forget me, wipe my kiss off of your lips?
How do I get on, run off, like you didn’t even exist?
Thank you for breaking the one part I had that wasn’t wrong
Now ill just sit here writing memories like a bad song
Like we didn’t have love at all
Like we didn’t have love at all

Devils advocate

Where’s a hand I’m reaching out
I can’t find strength i scream and shout
Just want a shoulder to cry on
No ones here so ill just go on
Living hours, seconds, moments
Looking for someone but they never come
When I say I’m just deluded
You just laugh don’t see behind it
I’m not dying on the outside
But inside I’m full of disease
Slowly eating my ambition
Quickly putting me on my knees
Grasping, clawing, hunting
For a way out of this pit
But it’s dark and I am blinded
By the void that on my lips
It’s to late to say your sorry
Have my name engraved in stone
And it’s calling me to lay down
Six feet under where I belong
I hope you soon forget me
Hope what you left for was worth my life
Cause I’m fading only weeks left
Got my plan and it is just right
So before I close this chapter
Write the end and put it down
I just wanted once to let you
Realize how much you let me down
I don’t care if tears you splatter
On the ground right on my grave
It’s to late for you to come back
And I wouldn’t want you anyway
You tore my heart out completely
Left me desperate, confused
When I tried to put it back together
All I did was re-abuse
I’m not asking for forgiveness
I won’t care bout that anymore
Ill be living in a different hell
I traded this one for

Why are you still here

I’m going crazy again
Hearing voices inside of my head
Controlling my every move
Throwing things across the room

I’m ready to run again
Ready to put it all to an end
Give me a gun I can pull the trigger
Turn everything black with one move of my finger

No tears will fall down tonight
I’m running on empty, dried up inside
I want to erase all this shame
Give them more but I’m causing them pain

You don’t get to call me a failure
You can’t judge the wrongs that I’ve done
You broke me and left me with nothing
I did what had to be done

Finished creating a monster inside me
Out of the cage now she’s looking for blood
Chains couldn’t bind the torment she brings me
Resistance is futile when I’m not in your arms

Two dead bodies rotting together
Ones buried deep, one wakes every day
Empty hearts looking for something
Anything to make this nothing go away

My thoughts are so dark at this moment
My adrenaline is running full force
Erasing all evidence I existed
Throwing away what I should be living for

Realizing isn’t half of this battle
I don’t care if you think I’m insane
You don’t feel the reality I live in
Wouldn’t understand if I was able to explain

Shaking the hourglass, make it go quicker
Open my mouth but there’s only whispers
Dreading tomorrow I haven’t had sleep
Hope I can make it through one more week

Underestimated my minds brutal power
Been trampled upon like a beautiful flower
Treason myself to this game I can’t win
Ill be all alone when it comes to an end

Resist the temptation to flee from the pain
Get out from the cover go into the rain
Dive deep in the water go under the waves
Absorb my apologies like drops of ink on a page

April 7th, 2013

The sun is shiny today and we topped 73 degrees :)))