For You

I wish I could remember
What my mind made me forget
I’m sure it’s here just lurking
In a room filled with regret
If you saw me pretending
To not notice you standing there
The gestures would seem silly
Like me playing with my hair
I really want to see you
But not in this busy place
Maybe go back a year or two
And relive you touching my face
Fast forwArd to the moment
When we said our last goodbye
I never renounced my love for you
There’s tears I never cried
But some things cut so deeply
Like the blade upon my skin
Like the burn of a shot of whiskey
Like your name out of my lips
The days have seemed to brighten
And I’ve learned to sleep alone
Cleaned out most of my closets
Got rid of those skeleton bones
Tell strangers all the things
That I cannot tell my friends
They know just how I’m feeling
No need here for all that pretense
I’ll lick my lips spit out some more
Don’t let my words fall to the floor
Part of me they’ll never know
You get the harvest of the pain that I’ve sown

Bloodstain on your hands-song attempt

Vrs.1
My heart had been broken
Torn into two
Never again to feel love flowing through
Thought I could handle
Weighed all the costs
Opened myself risking all that I got

Chorus:
Are you happy now
When you see my tears
Knowing all of me I gave you
Was all I had left to give
When you walked away
Without looking back
Did you notice all the blood stains
From the knife you drove in my back

Vrs.2
You told me you loved me
You told me you cared
That no matter what you would always be here
Glued back the pieces
Healed all the scars
Only to shatter what was left of my heart

Chorus:
Are you happy now
When you see my tears
Knowing all of me I gave you
Was all I had left to give
When you walked away
Without looking back
Did you notice all the blood stains
From the knife you drove in my back

Vrs.3
I thought you were perfect
Believed all your lies
Never imagined was just a matter of time
Till you slipped through my hands
Like sand on a beach
I really hope she’s every thing that you need

Break:
I find it hard to breathe without you
I’m on the edge and ready to jump
I only want one time to touch you
But that’s asking far to much

Chorus:
Are you happy now
When you see my tears
Knowing all of me I gave you
Was all I had left to give
When you walked away
Without looking back
Did you notice all the blood stains
From the knife you drove in my back

Your covered in my bloodstains
And you pushed me off the ledge

The way it is

there’s a hole in my heart but I stopped the bleeding,
there’s a tear in my eye and I’m barely seeing
there’s no peace in my life but I’m still believing that you will find me someday
there’s a weight on my chest and I’m suffocating
i have to fight for every breath and each one is less
dont even know if I’ll get the next and I must confess
that I get depressed,,are you looking for me?

its raining on my soul and Im drowning
trying to see land but there’s no accounting
for the hands pulling me down under the water
like an animal being led to it’s slaughter

looking for you to take me away
say you’ll never leave you’ll always stay
promise me I can believe in you
that only to me you will be true

a place where the quietness rules the night
where nightmares end and everythings right
with your arms around me holding me tight
i’d stay there forever with you

this darkness compasses my being
never satisfying my needing
“help me now”-I am pleading
take this pain away

I know you understand this thought
I know you also feel distraught
its a lost battle this fight we’ve fought
we must start over again

Ive never met you,youve never met me
but we share a bond no other can see
nor understand though its plain to see
we lean on each other’s miseries

I know how it hurts i know how you cry
I know how you long for them to hold you tight
I know when you cant face one more day
how you just keep going on in every way

they say your soo strong but I know your weak
I know you fall down onto your knees
I know how you begged for just one more chance
if only God would give you them back

But now I have to say goodbye,
put down this pen and wipe my eyes
cherish my angels and put them to bed
tuck them in and kiss their heads.