Muddled Mind

Truth be told I’m not alright
Privacy shows the pain I hide
Take off my makeup the scars collide
Breaking in two is just a matter of time

Days fly swiftly nights stand still
Sleep only comes with a handful of pills
Growing anticipation of hurdles in my path
Dragons free falling, bout to hit me with their wrath

Nothing but my empty hands
I bear no weapons here
Is it truth or is it lies
My sanity is unclear

To much time to wonder
When this raging storm will pass
Desperate girl puts on a smile
That only the mirror sees past

02/04/13

02/04/13

Another day anotheR tear falls
AnotheRday of unanswereD calls
Keeping busY to forget your face
No more to do I’vE already pled my case
Opening up boxes i should have left closeD
Taking back emotions your hands had stole
Walking in circles going nowhere fast
Not moving forward living in the past
Listening to your favorite tunes
everything you needed was in front of you
Pulling the elastic til it almosT snaps
Getting stucK in these complicated trapS
I asked you to stay but you left
You have my hearT without consent it’s theft
And youR days are good while mine are sour
Your thriving I’m dying like picked flowers
running out of words my thoughts are jumbled up
My throat is parched all’s left an empty cup
ill catch my tears in a bottle seal it with a kiss
throw it in the sewer let it sink in piss
Let the darkness overcome me
Embrace these feelings of disease
Turn the tables turn the page
Start havinG tolerable days
If it comes to me at night
Ill blow out the candles turn off the light
Your rising up I’m sinking down
Your acting cool I’m playing thE clown
That was thE last time I will ask you to calL
You don’t need me anymore I won’t crawl
I wont answeR if you knock on my Door
I wont let you hurt me Anymore